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Miss me.

My skills are fading. If I remembered what I used to capable of, it seems like a hoax. I don't remember how did my abilities fade?

I remember, I once capable how to code in PHP. Today, I find myself troubled with my own code.
I remember, I once laugh at anyone whom opposed to Christian faith. Today, I barely answer questions from Ahmed Deedat.
I remember, I once have the ability to control my emotions. Today, I find myself loosing my inner esteem.
I remember, I once capable of persuade. Today, I don't even understand what my heart wants.
I remember, I once not able to mad, sad, laugh. Today, what feeling beneath none is mine to persuade.

So, who am I these days???

I miss the old me. (minus the antisocial me)

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